buttery feelings!

i just got done watching a bollywood film. i loved it! so romantic! so epic! I'm going to be in a romantic butter state for a good week., and you never had to fast forward a second of it, they just loved each other......at the end. it was so cute watching them fall in love...prrrrrr...... I'm going to go buy it as soon as i get some money. it was called Jodhaa Akbar. i was on amazon and found the soundtrack and was like i wonder what this sounds like? so i figured i would watch the movie to find out. now i want the soundtrack AND the move!

if you are a boy... dont read this.

arg. im so ticked. im ticked about everything and nothing. arg. im ticked about silly things like money, but im trying to find something to actually be ticked at and i cant so im venting. no one reads this except people that know me so here we go. if you want you can skip this post, i just have to let it out. #1. money. AAAAAHHHHH!! why is money necessary to live? i cant find a job, the nova show that i did to raise money made me $150. i spent $900 on it. was that dumb? yes. was it worth it? no.
#2. boys. i hate boys, they are sooooo unflattering. not that im vain or anything, but i got told the other day that i was unattractive. ouch! he was no looker himself. you know, i figured i was normal, but ugly? ggggggrrrrrr...... so right now, i don't prefer there company, and it was not just that ether, i have been getting a few of those kind of comments lately. not quite to that caliber, but still it ouch. i feel like what the heck am i doing thinking i can be a model? i don't even know how much i want to pursue it in the first place, just until i get more acting stuff, you don't have to be pretty to do that. see isn't that really silly stuff to be mad at? please don't leave any comments, i don't want comfort cuz i know im being immature, just venting

yahoo! i got a job interview at coffee mecca on Wednesday! it will be sooo nice to get a paycheck again..... that is if i get the job..... i keep thinking, " what if they are just hiring people and not putting them on till mid march like everyone else? " AAAAKKKKK! i cant dwell on that part. different subject. i found a ring at Macy's i want, its sooo pretty and on sale! if i get the job and start soon, i want to go put that ring on layaway. that is if they still have it. it was the last one. oh well, if its not meant to be, then its not meant to be.